THE DESERT DIARIES

by R. Gurley

 

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R. Gurley, MA, MFA, is a writer and English teacher with over 20 years of experience with words, whose works have appeared in Coping Magazine, Lehigh Valley Woman’ s Journal, and Budget Press. 

She is the co-founder of rgurleyrevolution.com, a bi-weekly bilingual  blog/podcast sharing stories of women around the world navigating women’s new frontier, the #MeToo millennium.

Mostly, she is a desert rat....

 
 
 
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The Director

I come to the desert, I suppose, to reflect. I always have even before Jon lured me away over a decade ago.

I sit here now a day after his death seven years ago, watching the sun rise in the multi colored hue only a desert has. I needed this, a good long cry in the silence that only a desert has.

I sat in an apartment seven years ago. I watched the sun rise through eucalyptus trees. The birds Jon and I fed landed on our porch and looked at me. They seemed to know. A sense of silence, a feeling of incomprehensible space. Jon was gone. He was not at a hospital, or hospice, or somewhere where I could reach him. He was not there. No laughter. No jokes. Nothing. The birds flew away. I walked down those apartment stairs. I went away.

A seven-year adventure, another story, another day. I return to the desert today and think of the day before, the anniversary of his death. I was in Riverside. I got up early to walk the dogs up Mount Rubidoux.



We were walking as we do. I was lost in memory when a man walked up to us. He was a walker I’d seen before, one of those like my father, seventy-something, gonna live forever type of guys. He wore a black baseball hat with the word DIRECTOR in white caps. He smiled real big.


“What are you going to do with your day?” The director said.


I couldn’t help but smile back. Sometimes smiles are contagious.


“I’m going to walk these dogs. Then, I’m going to go to work.”


He laughed and asked what I did for work. I told him I taught.


The Director said, “Good for you! And do you walk these dogs after work?”


“Yes, sir, I do,” I said.


“And you? What are you doing today?”


He let out a gut laugh.


“Easy peasy. That’s the way I do,” was the Director’s reply.


He, then, thought and added, “As we age, we know what to do and what not to do, am I right?”


“Yessir, you are,” I said and added I was surprised at how much I liked aging.


He laughed and said, “ I can tell you do. Keep doing what you’re doing and have a wonderful day.”


With that, the Director walked past me and disappeared around the path wrapping around Mount Rubidoux.


A woman asked me the other day if Jon sends me signs or little gifts.


“He does,” I answered.


This year it was the Director.


The Director made me smile. I smile now through these tears cleaning me on this desert valley floor. The sun now golden through the creosote, the desert plant that smells like rain.


“Time to get up,” I almost hear the Director whisper in the desert wind.

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